Life changes

The past couple of weeks I have been on a complete downer, which is lame. I haven't been sleeping a lot, something which I have a major problem with anyway, but this has led me to feel incredibly lethargic and irritable all the time. This has resulted in me distancing myself from everyone around me and I basically sat in the same four walls (my bedroom) and only left to go to the loo, bathe or eat. I also didn't really care for much of my uni work apart from essays, I did no reading for lectures and barely showed up.
I was also getting a lot more panic attacks and night terrors, something which I suffer form awfully, which I may discuss in another blog post actually.

But anyway, this is surprisingly not going to be a miserable post because I have made a list! A list of things that will change my life.
Okay so here it goes;

• Healthy eating- I eat a lot of crappy food, either food on the go, food to give me a  boost or just something quick and easy. I realise this is making me feel horrid during the day, I am not drinking near enough fluids and basically need to revamp my eating style. So I have decided to cut down on sugar and carbs- to only have carbs with one meal a day and only a small amount. To eat breakfast, which is an important one because as we all know breakfast is the most important meal of the day. I also intend to eat a lot more fresh fruit and vegtables, which luckily I enjoy the taste of :)
• Drink more- Now I don't mean alcohol, infact the opposite. I want to make a concious effort to drink more water, also green tea and fruit juices. I will have the occasional hot chocolate or tea with sugars but not be as relient as I am on them now. Caffeine is going to be cut right down, no more energy drinks or anything like that as I know these are incredibly bad for me. 
• Get a normal sleeping pattern- Basic but it's so hard for me to get to sleep and settle on a night. But I am going to start by getting up when Ollie wakes up to go to work and actually get up and get active. Then go to sleep when I am tired.
• Stop worrying- As a human it is only natural that I worry, but I am a worry wart. I am irrastional when it comes to worrying and I think this is what's getting in the way of me sleeping properly. So I am going to make a concious effort to stop getting weighed down with things I can't control. If something is going to happen it will happen anyway.
• Go to uni- I have found some motivation for uni again after a rocky month and I know it's what I want to do so I am going to force myself to go, even if I have only had an hour or twos sleep.
• Be a generally better person- Ollie is one of the most genuine people I have ever met and he has taught me so much about how you should be as a person. He doesn't seem to have a bad bone in his body and doesn't get himself down about what he doesn't like about a person he just gets on with things. Sometimes being civil and being the bigger person is better for your body and mind than arguing your way through life. I can tend to be slightly hot-headed.
• Love myself- If you don't love you how can you expect anyone else to love you?

So, sorry for the wordy post but I thinnk writing it down will help me. Also if you read this and see that one of these things could benefit you in some way that'd be amazing! Any other tips you can give me. drop me a comment.

Nicola Mai..x